貳零壹壹年

貳零壹零年
我许下了要一个男朋友的愿望

貳零壹壹年
我只想要身体健康

脚踝铐着名为“包袱”的枷锁
跳不高去抓牢理想

傻人有傻福
我是挺傻的

天公啊
你会疼我的对吗？

Christmas 2010

This year of Christmas,
Santa Claus gives me some weight as my present=/

18th of December, a beautiful saturday,
no rain, good!
Went to this bar and had super nice food, yummy yummy~~

The following week,
21st of December, a not so beautiful tuesday,
cause i am working=/
dinner with Rachel and Sokhoon at The Orange Lantern,

bought chocalate for them and got chocalate from them, haha!

2 days later,
23rd of December,
met Aida for dinner at Beach Road,
had muslim-indian food, not bad=]

The latest food hunting is last saturday,
went Malacca with Qian.
Ate Hainan Chicken rice, 2 bowl of durian chendol,
and tried many other stuff.

See, how can i not get fat?

离开

离开，有一阵子了。
视野，变得宽阔；
心思，也变得中庸。
谢谢你=]

不说话，因为不想听起来傻傻的，不是害怕面对。
真的谢谢你。。。
都知道我在想什么，
愿意听我在想什么，
肯告诉我你在想什么。

那天说想念，是真的。
除了你、排排坐的圈子，还有那交换的眼神。
我和你，心有灵犀。
可惜的是：
离开，却回不去了。

但若不离开，永远学不会。
离开是好事，它教会我珍惜。

尴尬

想要去绿洲，怎么来到沙漠？
炽热的阳光，干枯的空气，
逼得我想离开，却没有力气拔腿。
多么无奈？

久而久之，变成一堆白骨，
在黄沙里，可有可无。
骆驼队经过，也不被发现的存在。
多么尴尬？

思考了很久，
或许绿洲和沙漠；
无奈和尴尬，
皆是一场梦。

也或许，这是一场螳螂捕蝉，黄雀在后的游戏。
而这场游戏对我来说，不公平。
因为或许我连心痛的权利都没有。

没有对谁说，也不想说，学会沉默好些日子了。
所以对于已看出端倪的人啊！
我可以告诉你，我不是始作俑者。
但或许我有点活该，咎由自取。

两个人拥抱暧昧，
三个人拥抱尴尬。

After graduating from TP, or rather Salvo Drums,
we hardly have chance to perform.
But hardly doessn't mean never,
and this really happen on friday night.
The chance drop from sky!!!!
I feel so happy and guilty at the same time.
But luckily Cheryl understand how i feel,
yeah, i feel happy like mad! LOL!

我的幸福

星期四MC，回Salvo，充当一天助教，好幸福。
星期五晚上和姐妹聊天至半夜，好幸福。
星期六重温搬鼓彩排收鼓的日子，好幸福。
然后一起吃饭，二人世界去唱K，再一起晚餐聊天玩牌，好幸福。
星期天，睡到太阳晒屁股，好幸福。
然后煮早餐煮到锅子烧焦。。。
煮多一次，现在吃饱了，好幸福=]

有人告诉我，她的梦想很渺小，
只想在家里当贤妻良母，当宅女。
我何尝不是，出社会后，
得了“想家病”。
每天只想回家打扫打扫，缝缝补补，外加下厨。
这样的生活，好幸福。

啊！回到现实吧，要去处理那烧焦的黑锅了=/

我

我是一个重感情的人，
我没有办法遇到不开心的事，
还要自己默默承受，没有办法。

垃圾桶不在，掷纸箩还是有一些。
只是现在流行环保，
不同的垃圾，要丢不同的桶。

所以女人，就是长舌，
同样的故事，说了又说，
为的只是那份感觉，
对的感觉。

我是一个超懒惰的人，
我想念我的朋友，
但从不主动联络。
我想问R台湾之旅怎样了。
我想跟她分享我的泰国之旅。
我也想问琪琪，
你怎么了？生活不开心吗？
但我连comment都懒得给。。。

我是一个矛盾的人，
明明说过可以接受不同人，不同思想。
但是我很讨厌，对于他，
我们两个有着不同的态度，我很讨厌。
更讨厌我自己，为什么不能做到完全理智！？

有时候，真的很想放弃，
风筝飞得太高了，很难掌控。

变色龙

它变来变去，是为了生存。
我变来变去，是为了掩饰。
变到最后才发现，我就是我，
无需刻意伪装。
歌词中早已告诉我：
没有必要使坏，倒也不必装乖。
但是可悲的不安与自卑感让我没学会。
可怜之人必有可悲之处，原来我也是可怜人之一。

说说曼谷的自由行吧~~
四个人的组合是刚刚好的，
搭德士很方便。
在下雨天的大马路上追巴士，
我只能说，曼谷真的很随性。
意想不到的经验我们都经历了，值得。

Suan Lum Night Bazaar的店主们都很凶，
问了价不买是会被骂的。
东西没有很多，但是若别的地方有卖一样的东西，
在这里却可以以最低价购得。
Chatuchak Weekend Market真的很大，也很热。
本小姐在Chatuchak买了一个钱包，THB1000，
一样的在Suan Lum一开价就THB950，
明显的被砍了。。。

自由行是很好的，
你会更认识自己，认识别人。
也会学到很多。。。
人类和骨头一样吗？
越老越脆弱。
小时候受到委屈，倔强得一滴眼泪都不流；
现在的我，却只想好好的大哭一场。
今天应该请一天假的，我需要释放。

哇爱等储困=p

去年的秋天，每当手表的时针跳到十点的时候，
我就会跟身边的人说：很迟了，我要回家睡觉。
当时的我，在离我家很远的公司实习。
“我要回家睡觉”，当时成了我的口头禅。

现在，手表的时针跳到十点，
我也跟身边的人说：很迟了，我要回家睡觉。
因为我现在，在离我家很远的公司上班。
"我要回家睡觉“，现在成了我的人生座右铭！？

社会篇：第一个月

做工的时间飞奔，每天天微亮就出门，回到家不久，天又暗了。
不知不觉，领了第一份薪水。
感觉满足也踏实，终于抬头挺胸的花钱了。
但每次在柜台付帐的时候，还是觉得怪怪的，飘飘然的感觉，哈哈。

独立之后，要处理的事情也多了。
看得见或看不见的。
买保险啊，要选哪间公司？
签一张信用卡吧，总是用小舅的，之后要还钱给他，好麻烦~~

以上是刚入社会一个月的心得=]
除此之外，同事也算好相处。
虽然内部的流言云云，但不知是我看不透，还是我不在乎。
一切都是那么的“还可以”，嘿嘿。。。
还好一入行就得相熟之人提点，让我双手不沾是非。
感恩至极！

Work has been manageable for me so far,
but somehow...i am afraid of the new environment and people.
I hope every things will go smooth, please!!

I went to Clarke Quay to collect my work permit yesterday morning.
And someone asked me, why you never smile,
when i showed her my Jurong Island pass.
Then i said, i thought cannot smile?
So i decided to take a picture of all my cards/pass which have my face on it.

All serious face=p
And the passport one is like Bread Face=[
I got this guy friend who always call me Moon Face or Mooncake Face=.=
Because they are all round!

After that, i went back to studio,
it had been so long since i drummed until i perspire and got blister.
I feel good, Nana Nana Nana NA~~

I moved this 5 drums, karen "hou sai lei", hehehe=D


But i went back alone=[
Because i last minute decided to go back when i am on the way back home from Clarke Quay and i didn't tell anyone that i am going back.

You know what, i hurt my ear when i move 霜降 using my left shoulder!
The drum press on my ear ring,
and my ear ring press on my ear, then bleed=.=
So....next time be careful when you move drum if you wear any accessories!

And now i am at Malaysia, home sweet home~~
I reach Changi at 10am, my "boat queue" is number 8,
i waited for 2 hours then i board the boat lo!!!
Reached home at 1pm you know=.=
And when i reach home, i saw this,

T.T~~All the nice balloons i used on my party become like that=[

♥Officially♥

I am officially 21 years old today.
I am officially my godmother's daughter today.
I am officially the support of my family after today.

This morning my mum cook a bowl of noodles for me, the noodles represent long life in chinese. Then we went to a temple at JooChiat to tell the Goddess of Mercy that i am becoming her daughter today. It's so called a "ritual". Of course the "mum" here is my aunt at Bedok, the one i stay with. As for my real mum, i think i will call her 王母娘娘=p. After that, we went to ToaPaYoh to have din sum=]

Tomorrow, i will have to wake up at 6am, and prepare to go to Jurong Island. I didn't make any wish when i blew out the candles. Because my dream has came true, that is to take care of my family=]. Start working straight after my 21st birthday make me feel that, i am officially an adult, i am old enough to take up the responsibilities.

But i do have something i wanna achieve, that's to become a vegetarian. I know there are many types of vegetarian, and i dun think i will become the strictest one, because i dun do it because of religion. I do it because of myself and the Earth. I think nowadays, human just consume too much of meat and rubbish, like snacks. Luckily i am not a meat lover and i am still thinking which type of vegetarian i wanna be. Hehe=p

For the celebration on last saturday, I wanna thanks many many peoples!

Rachel and SokHoon, thank you so much for coming and i feel very sorry that i didn't have enough time to talk to you, to take care of you. I hope you did enjoy yourselves at my hometown.

Then for Salvo, i also wanna thank you all for coming. When Chiawei give me the present, i was shocked and dun dare to accept, hahaha.....Because i think you all 破费了！So ChiaWei! It's not because i bias ok!
Special thanks to Cheryl for the book also. I thought it will be an english book because you seldom read chinese book right? And i always love "words", So i like the first page the most! haha=]
Million thanks to Choo and Ruth for the CD! Seriously, i never received this kind of surprise before. And every time when i am asked to write something on a small note book for this or that friend, i will start to think when am i going to have it too. And you make my wish comes true=]
Salvo really gives me a lot of surprises, from the day i joined salvo, thank you♥

最后，如果你问我有什么遗憾的话，
那就是没有把我重要的天使，介绍给我的好朋友认识=[
但是做人还是要感恩的，不然老天爷就会把你的好运收走。
我很感恩，有这么疼爱我的家人，照顾我的朋友，个人认为还算圆满的人生=]

日记

当我老了，我会在
闲来无事时，坐在后院的躺椅上，
喝杯咖啡，吃块曲奇饼，
在午后温暖阳光的沐浴下，
摊开自己的日记，
细细回味“当年”。。。
心想着：哇，原来当年还发生了这样，那样的事情！
光是想象这情景，就让我忍不住感到满足。
而这也是我持续不断写日记的动力。

可是，当情绪太过低落，日子太过无聊时，
我必须很现实的说，什么躺椅啦，什么阳光的沐浴啦，
两个字，狗屁！
但是呢，人生又不能太现实。
那样的人生，很粗糙。
现实中，还是要有一点浪漫的~~
这样，日子才比较容易过。
所以，还是努力点，继续写吧！
难保以后我当了富太太，真的有那种闲情回味“当年”=]

时间真的是过得很快，
再两个星期，就是我的生日会了！！
真得好快。。。很期待呢=]
希望会是一个愉快的回忆。

还有一件很开心的事，上次去了新加坡两个星期。
第二个星期，真的是好事不断=]
星期一接到Intertek的电话，说拜三去面试。
星期三去了Jurong Island面试，情况还不错。
星期五他们又打来说：我被录取了！
爽到（到是第一声，谢谢）~~~
但是问题又来了=[
人类就是这样，问题不断！
工作准证的手续，好像还蛮快的。
来临的星期一，又要出坡了，要去做身体检查。
如果后个礼拜就开始上班的话，
我这位寿星婆怎么办？
客人都请回家了，我呢？
工作吗？

Rainbow

Hi all, it has been so long since i last updated, more than a month.
So...i'm here to update my blog with some pictures.
Yesterday i went to JB with my mum and i took some pictures.


Yeah, this is so WTF!?
It's at Johor Bahru, nearby JUSCO at Terbau City.
I have to crop away the number if not i may get sued=p


This is when i'm on the way back to Pengerang.
The sky is darker on one side and brighter on the other side of the rainbow.
Damn cool right!
It reflects our life in many ways.
Too lazy to talk about 大道理 now.

But i wanna talk about my life for the past a month.
IT JUST SUCKS!!!
Everyday surf net, watch Korean variety show "We got married".
It's damn sweet la.
Make we wanna get a husband too....
Also i get to know many Korea girl/boy group and their songs as well.
But i prefer JYP=p
His song melts my heart, seriously!

Graduation 2010

Hi all!!! I graduate from TP ASc ChE today at 3pm. (Around there...)
I was very excited although i think graduation ceremony is not fun.
Haha, because i was very tired and perspiring like hell.
Kept taking picture until my face almost expressionless!
And i cannot take care of my mum and aunt if i wanna take picture with my course mate.
So they leave when i went back LT37 to take my bag without a proper goodbye, damn sad.
Luckily Hong and Pin came and accompany me until i went for Salvo.
I love them deep deep!!
And then my appearance was not good.
I should have do my hair and put some make up, tsk tsk tsk~~
But well, it is over and i shall say:
CONGRATULATION TO KAREN!!

可愛小朋友飲果汁

I am addicted to this video recently, it's a must watch!
Damn cute!

I ♥♥♥ her!!!

我快疯了

你真的很嚣张，明明我是年长的那一个，要对你说教或是询问事情的来龙去脉时，我还要筛选用词，怎样才不会惹你不高兴。可是我只要一开口，你就会语气不好的回应我。因为你太敏感了，我都还没下定论，你就觉得我是“这样想，那样想”的。你的口头禅，“什么哦！？”（加上一副我欠你一百万的嘴脸）。你凭什么决定我在想什么？

你的朋友很多，你很珍惜他们，这我没意见。那是你经营出来的友谊，你当然会珍惜。可是，在你是别人的好朋友之前，你有没有想过，你是这个家的女儿？是不是因为家人是一出生就有的，不用经营也不会失去的，所以你才表现得如此不在乎？你一回到家，除了facebook，就是看戏，从来没看你主动帮忙做家务。多用点心在家人身上，会要了你的命吗？

若说你不懂得珍惜家人，至少请你尊重我们可以吗？没有人是为了谁而活的，我们也一样。请不要把帮助你当成一种理所当然，一句简单的“谢谢，对不起，没关系”，在一个家庭里，也是很重要的。一个简单的提前通知，是尊重的一种，也是基本礼貌的一种。你。。。有尊重过我们吗？

你的脑袋里到底装了什么？食谱，潮流，朋友？你不是有健忘症，就是不受教。我教过你的，统统不见了。好像过了一段时间，你的头脑就会自动删除我所说过的话。然后相同的错误，你一犯再犯。到底要到何时，我才可以不用再担心？

你爱说什么就说什么，从来不管别人是否想听。你知道那些话都很伤人吗？你知道那些伤人的话都是很无谓，没有意义的吗？我们每个人都有自己的长处与短处，请不要因为你某些领域比别人强，就以此当武器用言语去伤害别人。我们从来没有主动去挖你的弱点来嘲笑，或者说一些难听、自大的话。我们谁都是人生父母养，都需要面子和被尊重，而你自私地从来不施舍这些给别人。可当你自己失去了面子，不被尊重时，你最后的话语就是“你讲这样就这样咯!”。我没有你的伶牙俐齿，我说不过你，但那不代表你是对的。为了一句话而大动干戈的始作俑者，通常都是你，而你只会责怪别人小气。

你常常说我们不了解你，而我因为害怕你会因此变成边缘少年，尝试做个和事老，帮你说话。结果我得到的是什么？她的崩溃哭泣，而你呢？经过了这么多事， 你有从中学到什么吗？你有任何的改变吗？很明显的，没有。还记得那天他说的话吗？你被说中了，你只是收敛了几天，然后又故态复萌。你依然固我，这么的任性，想的。。。都是自己的利益，照顾的。。。都是自己的感受。

有一只鳄鱼跑进村子里攻击人类，吃了几个小孩。村长很生气，说要去猎捕鳄鱼。村长的女儿却说：“可能鳄鱼只是肚子饿而已啊！你怎能这么残忍？”。我想说的是，因为鳄鱼的饥饿，那些小孩就活该被吃掉吗？你就像村长的女儿一样，天真的以为加害者是无辜的。你总是帮着那些伤害我们的人说话，你有没有想过我们这些受害者的心情？已经很难过生气了，还要忍受你的天真单蠢！“反对党同学”，还记得这称号吗？是一个年长我们许多岁的表哥，在许多年前给你取的。从小，你就很爱唱反调。记得你好像说过，你会这样是因为觉得那些被我们批评的人很可怜。若不是，那就算了，我也不懂你为何那么爱唱反调？我不能阻止你想说什么，只是。。。 我们的委屈，你感觉不到吗？安慰的话你不会说吗？你就只能说些令人生气的话吗？

曾经你说，如果她买那些东西给你，可是之后还要对你碎碎念，那你宁愿不要。今年的母亲节，你说要买条项链给妈妈（虽然用的是妈妈的钱，很没有意义），可是如果你还是跟平常一样，惹她生气，不懂得体谅她。那我想，她宁愿不要那条项链。最好的母亲节礼物，是能让妈妈开心，你成功过吗？

我所说的，你可以统统不认同。我也觉得写在这里，一个没有隐私可言的地方，很幼稚。但是请看到的人想一想，我到底是用怎样的一个心情，让这些事情公诸于世？

angel, 我快疯了，为了一切的一切，我的枕头都湿了。在许多个夜晚，累了，想睡了，情绪却激动的抓着我。 你知道吗？前晚我梦见我妈躺在棺材里，我拼命的哭，拼命的喊。直到我被吓醒，梦魇才结束。你说，“我中学的时候是很快乐的”。很简单的一句话，却只达我心底深处。到底为了什么我要这么不快乐？我并没有选择不快乐，只是不快乐不肯放过我。我想我快吃药了吧？

TP 20th Anniversary

这是我的小小心声：
今天表演了《难以共谋》和《突破》，
其实我觉得好烂，好难过。
我们的默契、实力，统统不见了。
我感觉不到那份谱，我觉得我只是把鼓声敲击出来而已。

当你说，这是我最后一次和你们一起表演了。
我在想，这是我们一起出的最后两场表演了。
一起经过了那么多艰难训练的我们；
一起出表演了两年的我们；
一起经过了许多事，但还是坚持留下来的我们。

好不甘心哦！我们的默契和实力，其实不只如此。
为什么？是谁残忍地把它们夺走？
随着时间的累积，我们应该更好不是吗？
有人说，他们要求进步，是为了自己，而不是为了表演才进步。
而我说，表演，只是一个证明我们的努力，默契和实力的机会。
我们可以更好的，可是我们已经没有机会证明了。
真的，我很不甘心。

Tomyam soup

Let me ask you a question.
When you drink tomyam soup, you prefer it to be more spicy or more sour?
Dun tell me "just nice lo", i will smack you until you dunno today what day!
How nice is your "just nice"?
Everyone have their own standard for "just nice".
It's you who complained the tomyam soup is too spicy,
and now we are blamed to put too much lime juice.
For me the tomyam soup is just nice but for you is too sour.
But i still think the tomyam soup is just nice because only you think it's sour.

When a dish is served and customer complain that it is not nice.
Who do you blame?
The chef or the ingredient itself?
Yeah, sometimes is the chef's problem, his skill not good enough.
But sometimes it's because the ingredient is not fresh!
From my point of view, it's both.

Besides, they are just a bunch of _ _ _ _ _ _.

初恋红豆冰

今年的母亲节，我知道要买什么给我妈了=]
就是这部电影，《初恋红豆冰》。
很写实，很有马来西亚的独特文化。
很多平时我们都在用的口语化语言，
联邦腔听到很爽，哈哈！
可能演员们都因居于海外太久，联邦腔有点做作。
但那并不影响整体的视、听觉效果。

里头的小人，我家乡也有很多。
里头的对白，我在梦里重复了许多次。
值得庆幸的是，我比打架鱼成熟。
然后，我要更加成熟，坚强=]

ALIN-换季

I have many thoughts in my mind, as always.
But i hate repeating so i shall just keep them in my mind.
Anyway, i am having the same thinking as my drummates.
Perhaps you can understand a part of me from the lyrics.


让爱换个季节　再开花结果
看时间把伤口酿成了收获
在风雪里最美镜头　是抱着你
可惜不能到最后

But there are still some words from me.

No matter what is the reason, we have already reached here.
If cannot start all over again, we shall just embrace it.
BELIEVE and RESPECT are important for a group to go on,
but TOLERANCE is what we need now.
因为我觉得你们不懂什么叫包容。

Rachel's 21st birthday party

Sia la....i thought today is Sunday.

Anyway, just came back from Rachel's 21st birthday party.
After knowing her family, especialy her dad.
I think i kinda know why we become so close in just a short period of time.
Her family is like Singer auntie and uncle their family,
so friendly and knowledgeble.
I talked to her dad quite long, haha.
Her dad knows a lot of things regarding religion, vegeterian, and chinese culture.
I enjoyed while listening to him because i like this kind of things too=]
And family really is a big factor which will decide your characteristic, thinking and behaviour.
I believe that's why i like her so much as a friend=]
At the moment i step out from her house,
i start missing her already,
i wanted to chat with her but no chance=[
haha, anyway....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, RACHEL, AND YOUR GRANDMA=]

I remember last time i like to chat with my dad.
We always talk about china's history.
He is very knowledgeble in this area.
I share my opinion and feeling with him.
We are like friend more than father and daughter.

把脉

今驱车新山探中医，大夫把脉而言之：
爱吃煎炸酸辣，如KFC，咖喱，laksa。
胆固醇偏高。
月事来潮肚子痛。
肚易涨风，打嗝，睡觉打鼾。
晚睡晚起，易疲惫，颈项酸，腰背痛
个性很乖，却情绪紧绷导致紧张，
做事忙藏，缺乏耐性，易发脾气，发完后又后悔。
容易掉泪，常常哭。

奴家不才，不知把脉能透露如此多讯息。
且又如此神准，特别是最后一句，
说到心坎儿里去了~~

大便脸=[

这几天，心情起伏很大，忽而高潮，忽而低。
大部分时间都是低落的。
而且很想哭，毫无原因的，很想哭。
还以为昨天心情已经恢复了，怎知今天的心情跟大便有的比！

今天，我真的不是故意的。
可怜的shermagne第一个中招。
还有其他人也是，
看到我的大便脸，应该也很不好受吧！
我真的感到很抱歉=[
因为我真的太累，太饿了。
再加上我原本就情绪低落，
然后又好死不死被salvo的人搞到很赌烂。
结果就一时失控了，对不起啦！
其实到现在，情绪也还是一样低落，还是很赌烂。

我相信感性和低EQ是不同的。
我很容易被周遭所发生的事情影响情绪，
但我不会因为自身的情绪而乱发脾气。
我很难掩藏自己的情绪，我的喜怒哀乐都表现在脸上，
但那并不代表我爱摆脸色，也从来没有要别人照着我的脸色做事。
只是，我的EQ没有很高就是了。
不然也不会失控！！！

平时很刮躁的我，不开心时就是不想说话。
这个时候，MP3真的很好用=]
我真的不是在耍孤僻，
只是人难免会有想休息的时候吧！
所以咯~~这几天，大家辛苦了。
打鼓这么累了，还要看到一张大便脸=[
希望明天会比较好吧！

I am tired like a bitch now!

My body is not aching though a lot of injuries here and there.

Bruises on leg!


Mark on shoulder!

I feel bloody dizzy now,
guess is because the rain just now.
Damn it!

Having mood swing yesterday and today.
But now back to normal already.
It's very hard for me to hide my emotion.
我是双眼皮女生，很感性的。
And i think it's my own problem of having bad mood,
it's not your problem.
I don't want anyone to have any misunderstanding that
i not happy is because of anyone.

Argh...i dunno, i very tired, Goodnight=]
Jiayou for tomorrow's Regatta Performance=]

120% of efforts = 100% of result?

Dream dream dream,
Song Leng appeared in my dream last night.
Saying i dun miss him is not right, i do.

Thing and people change as time goes by,
we dun have the ability to keep thing unchanged.
What we can do is accept the change so life can continue.
But over some time, my heart ache.
Inside me, there is a voice telling me that i want him to come back,
i want thing to be like last time, i want the happiness i had before.
To make it clear, i dun like people leave because of unhappiness.

I know it may sound naive to you but i still believe that
there is always a solution for every problem.
It depends on what you want and how you want thing to be,
or how you solve the problem.

I think you are too greedy.
You know, i never over force myself to get 100% in exam.
I am always at the "slightly better than moderate" level.
I am satisfied with it so i just put in 99% of efforts to get the result.
For some people, they think it is such a waste.
If they were me, they will put in 120% of efforts to get full mark.
But then, full mark so what?
Go and weight the full mark and the thing you lost for the full mark.
Is it worth?

Same for life.
When you put in many efforts to change the group,
but your efforts are wasted or even worse,
thing turns up the other way you want.
So you are angry, heart broken,
or you become not trust anyone anymore.
It is not worth.

且说缘分

成绩放榜当天，老实说，我有点彷徨。
三年前，带着行李，我来到陌生的城市。
三年后，书读完了，我该回家了。（至少在找到工作前）
可是因为一些人、事、物，对原本应该毫无留恋的城市，我有了牵挂。
三年时光，把老家的我的气息，洗光光~~
新加坡的衣橱，放的是我这三年来，购置的衣服。
老家的衣橱，放的是三年前，我常穿的衣服。
除了那些衣服，和我睡的床，
老家，并没有我存在过的痕迹。
到底我从哪里来？又该往哪里去？
我今年只有二十岁，却不曾在一个地方生活超过十年。
汶莱八年，马来西亚九年，新加坡三年，加起来刚好二十年。
有时想想，还真想哭。。。
我该对别人说，我的家乡在马来西亚，还是汶莱？
但不管怎样，我的未来，
至少这三年内，还是会“被绑”在新加坡，以身低债=D

缘
三年，遇到很多人。
投缘的，有两个，Fee Boon 和 Rachel。
投缘的，还有一坨，Salvo。
真的很投缘啊~~
几乎是第一天，就毫无陌生感的天南地北的聊。
虽然环境让这样的朋友无法相聚，
但你就是知道，彼方有个很谈得来的朋友。

分
很像我和Angel，但又有那么一点不同。
或许，
在外地认识的，叫朋友；
在同一个村子里认识的，叫家人。
也或许，是因为时间。
毕竟我和Angel认识了九年。
友谊不是一认识某人就有的。
友谊是需要时间来灌溉的。

所以常常有人说，有缘无分。
若是有缘相遇，却无分在一起，那就是一句对不起。
我说的在一起，是指想法上的，而不是俩人必须常碰面的那种。
我和Angel，除了认识的前半年，都是分隔两地的。
远距离友情，写信保持联系，久久碰一次面。
现在回想起来，好个纯纯的友谊啊！
总而言之，重点：认识的两人，有没有花时间，沟通彼此的生活和想法。

缘，就像幼苗；
分，就像水分。
缘分，就是我们亲手灌溉的大树。
朋友就像一棵树。
难过了，靠着它哭泣；
开心时，会刻在树上作纪念。
说着说着，好想念Angel哦=[

我想，在友谊的路上，我一直是幸运的。
可能我的个性不特别鲜明吧，长得又平凡。
所以，女人不会嫉妒我，
男人不会。。。（ok，我不知道男生怎么看我，哈哈）
但据我所知，男同学都抱怨我很凶！哈哈=p
所以，无风也无浪，交了很多朋友。
再加上，从小渔村来的我，有一群算是一起长大的朋友。
小学到中学，每天见面。
当然不是没有经过革命，只是革命之后，更成熟懂事，更珍惜彼此。
我知道他们将会是我一辈子的朋友。

有时候，我还蛮同情新加坡的小孩。
幼稚园，小学，中学，poly或JC，
这四个不同的成长环境，不同的“朋友”。
到底。。。有没有一辈子的朋友？
他们的朋友群广；
我们的友谊深。
当然，有或没有，见仁见智。
以前或许没有，不代表以后都不会再有。
如果你的人生可以活到八十岁，那么现在的你，才刚要飞翔。
沿途，你会遇到你的缘分=]

人活着没干嘛，等死呗！
开心点儿吧=]

I dream of salvo last night, yes, again.

We went to eat dinner at Techno.

I was sitting beside liyen and kelvin was in front of me.

Then i stared at kelvin and i asked liyen:" what is today's date?"

Liyen answered: "8th"

Guess what i do next.

I SHOUTED AT KELVIN:" WHY ARE YOU HERE!? YOU COME BACK EARLIER!?"

I think i miss him=p

Bull Shit

Why dogs like to play with bull's shit?

I bathed my dog just now because his body got stained with bull's shit.

And now i smell like bull's shit too=[

I swear it is very smelly!

closing of my blog

Hi all, i am closing down my another blog which i only write in chinese.

Closing down the blog means that,

whatever i used to write there last time, i will write here from now.

So Ee li yen, you dun understand my post next time is your problem liao=D

LOL!!!!

P.S: It is not really closing down like removal of the blog,

i just don't blog there already=p

Salvo chalet: 31st March - 2nd April

For this chalet, i got enough rest (even more than when i am at home).

At the same time, i paid for this plentiful of rest,

which is got 酸 by almost everyone, LOL!

Then the second night i got some tattoo from 猪小姐

被猪说是猪，够惨！


my toe nails, say hi to them=]

Then for the love letter thing,
like most of the juniors think that i always voice out and point out their mistake le=p, lol!
bo bian, i too talkative...

Through the chalet, i learnt a lot of things.
True heart will be replied by true heart.
Hypocrite will be replied by nothing.

A lot of things had changed, same for the people.
有人变得开朗，
有人变得不快乐，
有人变成熟同时有魅力，
有人变得爱欺负我=p
而我呢，问号-ing

Anyway, the chalet is fun=]
i miss herman, kelvin and songleng.

headbutt

See carefully, my forehead is at kelvin's eyes level.

So when i headbutt him, i knocked his eye instead of forehead.

Well, it is just for fun, paiseh ah kelvin.

I thought the 2nd time will be more accurate, LOL!

Thanks and sorry to all of you who got tortured by me.

In any form of torturing, verbally or physically.

Ya, i know i have done a lot of "bad thing".

I just cannot stop the action, it seems like i am addicted to be violent.

Most of the time, i feel loved.

Just like a little girl doesn't get scolded by her father even if she is being naughty.

I know the reason of the little girl being naughty,

is either she is too bored or she wants her dad to "sayang" her.

Most of the time, i am just too bored=D

So next time if you got beaten by me again, you know why!

毕业论

昨天，成绩拿了，“世纪”创了。
成绩和演出，努力都没有白费。
我，毕业了。
Poly生涯三年，如此短暂。
回首第一年，我只想要平平淡淡的度过，直到毕业。
第二年，不知发了什么疯，加入Salvo Drums。
第三年，也没什么特别，只是认识了更多的系友; Salvo 有了更多的新血。
在系上，有一直帮助我的Debbie和Aida，真的很开心和她们同班。
当然还有FeeBoon和她的朋友，在图书馆的日子，也很温馨。
然后。。。班上的男生，
虽然到现在，还是没有办法和他们成为朋友，
但我依然觉得，能认识就是一种缘分。

在Salvo里，除了会流汗流血，还会流泪。
度过了许多风雨，我们还是没有离开（好像歌词哦，哈哈）
虽然曾经很辛苦，但我们坚持留下来，还“创世纪”！
回首向来萧瑟处，归去，也去风雨也无晴
我很喜欢这句话，它是那么真切反映Salvo的情形。

我真的很爱Salvo
我是多么的舍不得
我会多么的想念
小小的studio 8，
打完鼓之后，夹杂着汗和毯子的闷热味道的studio 4。
Art Space 外面的女厕，在那里着装，准备出表演;
偶尔情绪失控，也会在那里痛哭。
还有那两个贩卖机，赚了Salvo很多钱，哈哈！

其实你们知道吗？
促进感情最好的方式，
不是常见面，多出门。
而是一起为了某个目标，
一起冲刺，一起努力，一起欢笑，一起流泪。
开心也好，难过也好，舍不得也好，
当我觉得，你们还蛮可爱的时候。。。
我要离开了。

最最舍不得的人，该说什么好呢？
我很喜欢我们腻在一起的感觉，
君子之交淡如水，我们就是这样的吧。。。
没有那么复杂的我们，淡淡的，却也暖暖的=]
就好像Cheryl这样~~~
Cheryl，你听到我的告白了吗？ 哈哈哈=D


《创世纪》划下了我们的句点，
在这完美的演出之后，
我们不会再在一起努力了。
下次，轮到我坐在观众席上，
看你们努力，看你们打鼓。

Salvo Woosh！

liyen and her sour tape

so fun having conversation with them=]

this part is where the conversation start to get fierce after munyong left.

i like liyen's sour tape(Y)

has been suffering from stresses for so long,

this conversation really make me laugh.

I am karen

I stayed up all night before my Chemical Reaction Engineering exam.
I think i can get an A=]
I slept from 11pm till 6am before my Material and Nanotechnology paper.
I think i flunked it=[
I am going to Bangkok from 18th till 21th of March.
I found out that the supplementary exam is from 19th will 25th of March=[
I got BTT on 25th of March too.
I will be free after that and waiting for graduating=]
I have not sent my resume to any company yet.
I may not get a job soon=[
I went out with my friends yesterday=]
I watched movie with them at Iluma=]
I met Munyong at Iluma=]
He hit me, pain=[
My friends knew that i "scolded" one of our friends, so
I posted on facebook "即使是知己，也会有不愉快，更何况是好朋友，气过就算了。。。"
I saw Eric's message yesterday.
I am not willing to pay SGD30 for the costume so i have not replied him until now.
I am in Malaysia now=]
I sms-ed my best friend in the afternoon.
I have not gotten a reply from her=[
She is my best friend, why she don't reply me?
I need to talk to her, so much things inside me.
My mum and my sister always argue=[
I find that my home is not that happy already=[
I want to escape from the unhappiness but this is my only home=[
I am going to my relative's house this saturday=]
I will ask them to come to Salvo concert=]
I realised all my relatives treat me very nice=]
Because i am _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _=[
I got a free MP4 from my internship company=]
I met up with my colleagues to sing K and he gave me=]
I asked Ruohan to help me buy headphone from a Korea website.
He seems to be facing some problem of purchasing it=[
I appreciate his help even if he cannot get the headphone=]
Eric's score have not finished yet=[
I am going to start drumming on 2nd of March=]
I am looking forward to the concert.
Some of my friends cannot come=[
My mum is going to Thailand.
I have to come back Malaysia to look after my house.
I bring trouble to her as i cannot confirm my schedule with her=[
It is because i flunked my MNT paper=[
I am under pressure for very long=[
I want to sing K!
I am not healthy=[
I feel disgusted when someone criticizes others with no reason or strong evidence=[
I think they are childish, ridiculous, ugly, shameless=[
I wish to go back.
I wish i had never came to Malaysia and then Singapore.
I wish you are here with me.
I miss you.

Sugarloaf's pineapple tart rocks!
Although the filling=pineapple is too sweet.


For the chocolate, i give 100%.
It is super nice=]
But my tooth very pain now~~~~
Eat too much sweeties today=[

Tomorrow have Basic Theory Test in the morning,
i am glad that salvo training has stopped......
Do you really think that i happy?
No~~~~i want training!!!!

By the way, i saw my friend's brother at ASc level 1 today,
i was very surprised (because the guy is from my hometown) so i called him.
I call his full name, cause i dun really know him, LOLX!
Then we had some funny conversation,
but most of the time was me talking.
Because he dunno me at all=p
Then i found out that the company he is working for is our school's lab equipment supplier.
That's why he come down to TP.
Then he left....
I felt damn embarrassing but still....how to say,
you know the feeling of
coincidentally meet someone who is from the same hometown in a foreign country?
So i must call him! LOLX!

Okay, have to study for BTT already=]
bye~~

Finally the MNT project interview is over=]
It was not that bad, we can answer most of the questions.
Although the answers may not be correct=x
Anyway, what has been done has been done,
sounds familiar right?
LOLX

The next project is PT project.
It should be an easy task so i am not worried.

What really concerns me is the drum scores.
One do not have enough time to learn,
one have enough time but did not use it efficiently,
one have enough time and it's used efficiently but the energy level is low.

If your teacher teaches you 1+1=2
but during the examination,
he suddenly says 1+1=3.
What can you do?

Indeed the efforts are put in;
in fact the efforts are put into rubbish bin.

《鼓立方》是一场值回票价的演出。
虽然我看完之后就忘得七七八八了，
但感觉是忘不了的。
我的感觉是——真的是很好看=]

《创世纪》即将来临，
我好想哭啊T.T
《生克五形》就甮说了，
到最后可能会“真的无形”。
《创世纪》叻~~
唉！我去“撞死鸡”可能还会快一点。。。

星期三就要预审了，
可进度都。。。
唉，不是我想讲。。。
加油吧！SALVO！
希望我们顺利地度过这一切，
直达目标——《创世纪》！

玲玲已经到新加坡了，
明天要去见她和她的洋男友，
十二年没见了，
好兴奋噢=D
晚安=]

Scientists say the higher your I.Q. The more you dream.

Karen just read this from Jia huan's mail.
Hahaha, i dream about salvo almost every night,
so i can conclude that i have unmeasurable I.Q.=]

他奶奶的破相！

How can my drumstick hurt me!?
Oh my pretty face=[

Yo, i updated my blog by uploading the pictures to the previous post=]
Hmm.....life is quite stressful now.
14/1 - MNT report (almost forgot about it)
22/1 - PT project submission (haven started)
25/1 - MNT project submission ( started but not more than 50% have done)
28/1 - PT term test 1

Other than that,
22/1 - Song Leng's birthday chalet
23/1 - Hong and Heng Yong's birthday chalet

Ok la, not really many things but the progression of the project is really killing me!
Damn it!
I hope i can pass through all this....
I hope the exam come soon and also the concert and the Thailand trip!

So cute right!
I want to give birth to a son like him!
Kawaii desu ne~~~
My son's father, where are you?
Haha=p

Happy Year 2010!!!!

Happy new year everyone!!!!
Have a great year ahead!!!
Let's make a wish for this year~
I want a_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ this year=p
It's a secret@@
Cannot tell you....

Let's make a reflection about year 2009.
I had learn that:

1. Always complete your task by the deadline
A new year come and i just missed the deadline of submission of my homework yesterday=[
WHATEVER!!!!

2. Silence
It's not about voicing out something that you think it's not right or right in another way. Sometimes, silence is the way.

3. Trust
It's very important in every kind of relationship, no trust no talk.

4. Bias
Same as point 2, no trust and you talk, what you say could be bias one.

5. Care
All the struggle come from this guy. You have the freedom if you dun care about anything.

I want to thank this very special person.
Fishball Huiying!!!!
I really appreciate the thing that you taught me when i was lost and dunno what should i do.
I can tell you those thing that you taught me are already in me=]
But a simple "thank you" is what i can say to you.
Thank you so much, MUACKS<3

Then i also want to thank Soeng May and Li Yen,
without their help,
i really dunno how to complete my Major Project!
Love you 2 deep deep=]

And then i want to thank a teacher from Chemical Engineering,
the teacher in charge of SIP.
I want to thank you for sending me to Shell Seraya for my SIP.
It really helps me a lot.
I dunno how to explain but it really helps.
Thank you teacher=]

Then i thank god, LOL!
I want to thank you because you introduced Rachel Chew to me!
A friend that is very 谈得来=]
Must cherish the fate okay?

Lastly, Santa Claus.
I swear i had never been so sad when i lost a thing.
I almost break down when i know i cannot find the ring.
I will continue to be a good girl.
So please protect my ring from whoever wanna steal it okay?
Thank you for sending it back to me!

Okay, now is apologize time...
I had hurt this person for twice i think....
but i am a very straight forward person so....i dunno what to say already.
What i can do is to be aware of what i say,
better is keep quite, LOL!
I am sorry.
I am not apologizing for what i said but the way i said=]

Year 2009,
let me count,
how many times (that i can recall) i got angry with my mum?
3 times....
Oh my god, that's a lot.
Okay mum, i wanna tell you that I LOVE YOU.
Making you feel sad is the thing that i will never want to do.
But you need to know that sometimes i am facing stress from my school stuff, my cca, etc.
It's very hard for me to always have a good mood.
So if it (get angry with you) ever happen again,
can you please just take it as a funny joke?
Left ear in right ear out?
If you feel sad because of it i will feel even more sad than you.
I swear i do.

A new year have came!
Hope everything/ everyone will get better from this second!