Tomorrow start my SIP at Shell Seraya.
If you dunno where is it,
it's in Jurong Island....AGAIN!!!!!
Damn.....tiring....
although haven't started my SIP,
i feel the tiredness now, haha
For my course Chemical Engineering,
(or maybe the whole applied science school, i dunno)
we have SIP and MP at the same time.
I feel stress...
when i saw the report book, log book....
Wah, feels like crying~~
I'm scared, i'm scared, i'm scared!!!!
Haix....
Wish me good luck^^

WooHoo, i used the time effectively yesterday.
I woke up at around 8:45am.
Left house at 9:45am.
Then went bugis, walked to Bras Basar,
walked back to bugis again, took MRT back to Tampines.
Then take 29 to Changi=)
And when i reach Changi, it was 12:30pm only=)
Ok, the place at Bras Basar is called Art.Friend instead of Art & Carft

This is the place i
bought the things that i had bought since i lost them=s
After i reach Changi, i board the boat at 1pm.
And there were only 4 passangers in the boat!

Went to Little India and Bras Basar with 小小 today.
Because i want to buy some clothes to sew a pouch for my 鼓棒.
We bought our stuff at this shop called "Art and Craft".
The carrier is a YELLOW PLASTIC BAG!
Then we headed down to Tampines Mall to meet 若涵 and 婉仪.
We had dinner at The Cafe' Cartel.
After that, 小小 went off first since she got something on.
So, left 3 of us went to Century Square 3rd floor's toilet.
After the toilet break, we went to Best Denki.
When i happily walked around there, i realized:
Where is my YELLOW PLASTIC BAG!?
Oh my god!!!!!!!!
I thought i left it at The Cafe' Cartel, so i ran there.
But the staff there said they didn't see mine the yellow carrier.
While asking them, i recalled that i actually hung it behind the door of the cubicle.
So, i ran to Century Square 3rd floor's toilet again.
But it was not there!
Ok, fine, someone stole it=(
Sad, although it is not expensive,
i have to go back to Bras Basar to buy again la!!!!!
So irritating man=(

Wahaha, graduated today^^
From Chemical Process Training Center by Petrofac!
After the graduation ceremony,
we took A LOT of picturessss, really is a lot^^
After i get those pictures from facebook,
i will upload them here^^

Then went back school to meet my cousin to see a house.
The block we went is just a few blocks apart from Veron's house sia!
But i dun think he gonna stay there la=p
Will see how his partner say.

After that, met Hong and Pin.
Had a great time with them at Secret Recipe^^
Wanna go there again~~
but i don't want gain weight anymore=(

I'm feeling old...
Had final exam yesterday,
so i stayed up the previous night,
just like what i did in the past.
But yesterday, after i had my coffee and pancake,
i vomited after i reached CPTC.
But nothing came out except for the gastric acid and a little bit of coffee.
Then my throat didn't feel well.
After that, before going to Salvo,
i ate a chocalate croissant.
AND THEN~~i vomited again after i reach TP.
Now having a very bad sore throat=s
It's like the gastric acid corrodes my throat,
i think my throat is injured=(

Ok, i think i should quit this habit which had followed me since i was in secondary school.
Stay up late is not suit me anymore, sad...
And also, i will try not to do last minute job anymore=)

Yesterday was the last practical in CPTC.
Will go back there for final term exam on wednesday
and graduation ceremony on friday.
I will miss there>.<
My class TP4 is so good, classmates are nice....
Mr. Jimmy is a super nice trainer too^^
I will miss the KDU plant also...
Haiz....Time flies~~
6 weeks, gone.

CPTC night shift was great!
The view was so nice, but the weather was not so nice...
It was raining, but i got the chance to wear until like a banana=)
cause the rain coat is in yellow and somemore i wore the full set!
We did fuel switchover of the furnace system,
But the boardman tripped our system=(
haha, then we swapped,
we became the boardman, hehex
playing with the control board was cool~~
It's like the whole plant is under your control!

You know, when it is in the morning 6am plus
but you never get a rest for the whole night,
you will start to do some silly things.
This is what had happened in the lab.
(Iron testing procedure is infront of me)
Fren: Karen, what are you doing?
Me: Iron testing la!
Fren: No, i had done the iron testing, now we should do orthophosphate testing.
Me: Huh, no, you did the calsium hardness one, now do Iron testing.
Fren: No, i did the iron one.
Me: Ok, so now do what?
Fren: ORTHOPHOSPHATE!!

In the control room.
(we supposed to take a break, let the other 2 groups become the fieldman and boardman)
Me: Eh, so now who is the boardman?
Fren: The team with Mr. Sammy.
Me: Then who is the fieldman?
Fren: The team with Mr. Henry.
Me: Orh, ok...
Me: Huh!? So who is the boardman?
Fren: Mr. Sammy's team.
Me: Fieldman le?
Fren: Mr. Henry one la!

Had alot of funs there,
then had Mac. Donald for breakfast at TM at 10am plus.
Went back home, bathed, slacked and slept until 9pm.
Woke up for dinner, and now blogging.
ArhHHH~~~so sleepy....

"What a wonderful Friday"
This is what i have been thinking for the past few weeks.
If you know,
the time we spend in CPTP is tiring although enjoyable.
And most of the time, we were isolated in an island.
No computer, no handphone=(
Not like others, SIP still able to go msn, facebook...
But never mind, left 2 more weeks=)
And next week i will start my 12 hours shift schedule.
Wednesday is night shift: 8pm till next day's 8am
Weekends is day shift: 8am till 8pm
It's so cool~~

Well, I had experience mood swing since my CPTC started.
The previous post is not a sudden thought
but an emotional brokeout.
So, dun worry.
Nothing special happened.
Ehh, it still sounds like Karen is not happy=s
No no no no NO~~~~
I'm feeling better since the juniors came in.
It totally changes the atmosphere.
I hope and believe that things will change better.
Because when i stand away from the circumstance,
i saw what had happened actually is normal for a CCA.
Even is the response of everyone.

Since i started it, i should now end it here.
I will go on to seek and accomplish the thing i should do.
Thank you for showing me your concern to salvo and to everyone,
i really appreaciate it.
You all are good seniors^^

we are no longer a family

I dunno how many of you will understand what i say,
but basically,
those who understand may not understand also.

去年这个时候，我们加入了Salvo Drums。
六月短假，参加了训练营。
九月长假，Clement等人举办了两天一夜的chalet。
十一月的TP rawks，第一场表演。
今年四月，重大的表演—TP Open house，
在这期间，少不了无数的outings，
圣诞节、情人节，我们也一起度过了。
二月长假，第二次的chalet，
我们有一个长达三小时半的交谈。
就像clement说的，
“有哪一个CCA会像我们这样， 谈心谈到每一个人都哭的? ”

这一年来，我们一起走过了很多。
有欢笑，也有泪水。
我们之间的关系，从陌生到熟络，变得越来越亲密。
我们互相了解，信任，照顾，包容 。
我们都来自不同的家庭，背后有不同的故事。
不同的成长环境，让我们的思想也不径相同。
但是我们都有个共同点，我们都爱背黑锅。
通常我们会认为，
“都是因为我犯的错，事情才会这样，都是我的错，我对不起大家”
像慧莹说的，勇于负责任是好事，
但也不需要把全部的错往自己身上揽。
然而，因为这一点，显示了我们是多么的在乎彼此，
所以我觉得我们是最好不过的鼓队了。
一直以来都这么认为，直到前天，
我突然觉得，Salvo不再是一家人了。

或许我应该说，Salvo遇到瓶颈了。
因为我们变亲密的速度太快 ，
友谊最基本的“互相了解”都还没有打好 ，
就冠上了“家人”的称号。
从那之后，我们的关系，就原地踏步了。
了解度没有增加，包容度被质疑。
而这两个元素，却是成为家人，不可或缺的。
就因为这样，为了不破坏表面上的和谐 ，
许多的想法、意见，我们都不敢说出口。
除了怕伤到别人的心，也害怕得罪被点名的人。
因为我们不知道，别人是否能接受。
能接受就大团圆结局，
不能的话就是一根刺，卡在彼此的心里。
这样的我们，还是家人吗？

不是只有学业、鼓技，需要追求进步。
朋友或是家人之间的感情，也是需要被提升的。
难不成你以为那些家庭破碎、情侣分手、朋友翻脸，
是怎么发生的？
当人类相处得越久，问题或是意见就越多。
我们应该做的，
是尝试去更加的了解彼此，包容彼此。
可是我们没有，
反而我们一直在利用“家人”的名义，
去掩饰我们的一些行为。
一些无伤大雅，却又不想动机被承认的行为。
家人，我们配吗？

这样的我们，要如何走下去？
这样关系，仿佛紧绷的塑胶圈，就快被扯断。
这样的Salvo，让我窒息。
我已经很厌倦“Salvo是一家人”的这句话了。
它言不由衷、名不副实、令人难过。
没有生病过的感情，一旦倒下，
是很难康复的。
忘了《玄》的故事了吗？
朋友从认识，经过了摩擦，到慢慢了解彼此，最后步伐一致。
没有经过摩擦的感情，很虚假，
仿佛下一秒，所有的假面具都会裂开。
但愿有人拿着铁锤，敲开这层关系，
让我们坦诚的面对现在的情形。

我们是有爱，可是无共识。
如果会一直这样，拜托，
不要说我们是一家人。