Drumming really gives me alot of powers.
Since this week is quite bloody busy,
so i was very stressed with my projects and quizzes.
But then, after the performance, i dun feel stress at all.
Indeed i was damn HIGH!!
And i dun feel scared of those projects and quizzes.
I feel that i can manage them and do well!
Unbelieveable? But it's true...

And yesterday was really memorable.
Our first performance,
although we will have much more performances in the future,
but i think the feeling will be different,
because this is the FIRST!!
It's like a milestone for us
and the efforts that we put in during this half a year,
then now is the time to show our result...

The only word to describe my feeling is touched.
And because of that, i feel like crying.
When i was talking,
my body was shaking and there was quaver in my voice.
But my tears didn't come out, i dunno why.
What i know is that, i dun cry so easily,
so maybe is that time the atmosphere still not enough...
Therefore the feeling was kept in my heart.

Until...ya, the incident.
I CANNOT ACCEPT!!
and it's very sad...
so i reach the maximun point.
But i didn't dare to release my feeling by crying,
for that time the situation, i can't cry silently.
I sure cry until like got serious problem happened to me:(

So, until now the "crying" feeling is still in my heart...
no matter it's in good or bad manner:)

I should find a chance to release it,
it's uncomfortable to keep in my heart.
Because now i am emotional =p